Friday, November 26, 2010
The Father Knows Best: Baby Sling Giveaway!!
The Father Knows Best: Baby Sling Giveaway!!: "Ok, ladies!! Here is a fantastic giveaway! We all know the value of being hands free when we have tiny ones. Especially if you have mul..."
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Already a blogging slacker...sigh
Ok, so I really need to get better about this already. i guess it is hard for me to get into this new habit. i will go ahead and tackle the topics for days 2 and 3 and try harder to stay on track
something i love about myself
i love the wife and mother that i am. i am fiercely loyal to my family and try to make sure my family knows how important they are to me.
i am a good mom - i may not always make the "right" or best decisions for my children, but i do what i think is best at the time. i put my whole heart into being their mom and doing right by them. i parent MY way. i may ask for help or advice, but ultimately i am going to do what feels right for my family. i will always put my children first.
i am a good wife - i treat my husband with love, respect and faithfulness. i know that i will always make the effort to work through our issues rather than let our troubles break us apart. we have been through far too much together to let anything get in between us. i love that, after a string of bad relationships, i can truly be myself with morgan - he gets to see all the bad stuff about me.
i don't take my family for granted - i truly appreciate them and all of the joy they bring to my life. i love that these three people have become my reason for happy
something i have to forgive myself for
i have to forgive myself for not finishing my bachelor's degree (yet?). i have let life get in the way of my education and i really beat myself up about it. i feel like i should have stuck with it the first time around, but my priorities got all turned around until school barely even made the list. since then, it has become harder and harder to make the time for my education - i hardly have time for a shower some days, let alone time to write a paper. i need to give myself a break about it - i may or may not every finish up a degree program, and i need to be ok with it either way. a degree does not prove how smart i am or validate my existence.
ok, i am tired - i made half-assed attempts to do my days of truth - i am going to bed now.
something i love about myself
i love the wife and mother that i am. i am fiercely loyal to my family and try to make sure my family knows how important they are to me.
i am a good mom - i may not always make the "right" or best decisions for my children, but i do what i think is best at the time. i put my whole heart into being their mom and doing right by them. i parent MY way. i may ask for help or advice, but ultimately i am going to do what feels right for my family. i will always put my children first.
i am a good wife - i treat my husband with love, respect and faithfulness. i know that i will always make the effort to work through our issues rather than let our troubles break us apart. we have been through far too much together to let anything get in between us. i love that, after a string of bad relationships, i can truly be myself with morgan - he gets to see all the bad stuff about me.
i don't take my family for granted - i truly appreciate them and all of the joy they bring to my life. i love that these three people have become my reason for happy
something i have to forgive myself for
i have to forgive myself for not finishing my bachelor's degree (yet?). i have let life get in the way of my education and i really beat myself up about it. i feel like i should have stuck with it the first time around, but my priorities got all turned around until school barely even made the list. since then, it has become harder and harder to make the time for my education - i hardly have time for a shower some days, let alone time to write a paper. i need to give myself a break about it - i may or may not every finish up a degree program, and i need to be ok with it either way. a degree does not prove how smart i am or validate my existence.
ok, i am tired - i made half-assed attempts to do my days of truth - i am going to bed now.
Monday, November 1, 2010
NaBloPoMo - day 1(part2)
something i hate about myself.....
i have an inability to interact apporpriately in social situations. i suck at small talk, i get nervous and overthink everything i say. i come off like an idiot and hate the words coming out of my mouth. i feel like when i talk to people that they are looking for an escape. the thing is that i am not an idiot, i have valid thoughts, ideas and beliefs. i just put so much pressure on myself to say the "right" things and not to seem stupid that i just get flustered and end up with diarrhea of the mouth. i just can't shut up and i say stupid things - it's like my filter turns off.
my biggest fear with my lack of social graces is that i will be a negative influence on avery and carson. avery is such a social being and loves being around people and will talk to anyone. i don't want to screw that up with my own insecurities. i make an effort to take her on playdates, to the park and to the library where she can play with other kids. i try so hard to chat with the other moms, but it just doesn't come naturally for me. i feel like an outsider around the mommy squads. everyone else seems to have such an easy time of the social rules. i want to be that kind of mommy, i don't want avery or carson to be embarrased by me because i can't have a conversation with their best friend's mom without alienating her.
i hate that i can't make friends. i hate the effect that it may have on my childrens' abilities to make friends. i hate that, as hard as i try, i can't do better.
i have an inability to interact apporpriately in social situations. i suck at small talk, i get nervous and overthink everything i say. i come off like an idiot and hate the words coming out of my mouth. i feel like when i talk to people that they are looking for an escape. the thing is that i am not an idiot, i have valid thoughts, ideas and beliefs. i just put so much pressure on myself to say the "right" things and not to seem stupid that i just get flustered and end up with diarrhea of the mouth. i just can't shut up and i say stupid things - it's like my filter turns off.
my biggest fear with my lack of social graces is that i will be a negative influence on avery and carson. avery is such a social being and loves being around people and will talk to anyone. i don't want to screw that up with my own insecurities. i make an effort to take her on playdates, to the park and to the library where she can play with other kids. i try so hard to chat with the other moms, but it just doesn't come naturally for me. i feel like an outsider around the mommy squads. everyone else seems to have such an easy time of the social rules. i want to be that kind of mommy, i don't want avery or carson to be embarrased by me because i can't have a conversation with their best friend's mom without alienating her.
i hate that i can't make friends. i hate the effect that it may have on my childrens' abilities to make friends. i hate that, as hard as i try, i can't do better.
NaBloPoMo - Day 1 (part 1)
So, I decided today to start a blog. It is National Blog Post Month and I figured that this is probably the best day to jump head first into it. Kara posted this list of topics a few days ago and I thought it was a great idea, plus I love having some direction to get me on the right track. If I was just supposed to blog about "whatever" everyday for a month, it would be pretty darn boring. So I am reposting the list of 30 days of truths and starting now.....
Day 01 Something you hate about yourself.
Day 01 Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 03 Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 Something you have to forgive someone for.
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